Just when we thought we were on the mend. As I said in the last blog, Craig’s chemo went pretty well, on Tuesday that is. Wednesday through Sunday didn’t go as well. It is very hard to see him do as well as he was doing the week before chemo, and then get knocked back down. He said yesterday, “I’m not really sure why I am feeling this way?” My response was, “UUUMMM , do think maybe it’s because you have cancer?” The week before chemo was great, we just need to be patience and work to get back to that point. I try not to get too excited when he is having good days, so that it doesn’t hurt so much when he has the bad ones. It is very much a roller coaster of emotions around here. I guess having 3 girls was preparing me for this trial with Craig. Trying to plan events around our family seems to be the big guessing game right now. We have a few birthday’s and an anniversary coming up and want to do some fun things but when each day is different how do you plan for a few days or a couple of weeks out? Sometimes it’s minute by minutes, day by day. We thought we had week by week all figured out, but as Craig said yesterday, “I think I got cocky.”
Our sweet Ashlyn has her 16th birthday on Wednesday February 2, yes she is our ground hog, (for Elizabeth and Geroge in England, you will need to look “Ground Hog Day" up on google). She is such a delight for us to have in our family. She is very tender and sweet to us, and everyone around her. She adds a very special spirit to our home, and has a very special tender relationship with Craig.
It is our anniversary on February 5th, 23 years and counting. We are going snowmobiling, and then to dinner and a movie. Hahaha, just joking. But we may get some take out for dinner, sit really close with Craig in his recliner pulled really close to the couch where I will sit, and hold hands, and watch TV. We will do something really special next year.
I justs asked Craig what I should title the blog. After a few moments he said, "Cancer Sucks". Well it has nothing to do with the blog but its true. I really don't like that word, in fact, I don't like either of the words, but putting them both together really actually makes since. "Craig, why don't you tell us how you really feel?"